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Lately I am often overwhelmed by the feeling of happiness.
It's like a push which remains heavily a few minutes. It's like a drug for me. This feeling is awesome and I need it. I want it all the time. I am obsessed with it. It is better than feeling lonely, unhappy, sad or angry.

Happiness is, with Love, the most wonderful feeling on earth.

I am starting each day with a smile and thinking how happy I am for the dreams I had and for the little sunbeam, which seek the path of the roller blind. It overwhelms me every morning again, I just see the people in my dreams that I really wanted to see. Like today! Again I dreamed from the Person I wanted to see in my Dreams.
 I am so happy today.


I stopped thinking about all my Problems. I know, these Problems can go away. Step by Step. They will be deleted one day. Also I know they can't go away just like that.  But this Problems are not that big anymore, as they were before.  I  myself made these Problems as huge as possible. Not anymore. I'm done.
Thinking about all the bad things happened around the World, Internet or even just to my Person is not worth any thought. It is a waste of Lifetime. I don't care about what others writing about my favorite Artists. I don't care about others Opinions to subjects I like. I am not interested in it at all. If People making fun about me online, I pay them back. But only, if they do it over a longer period of time. If someone really wants to waste his or her Lifetime writing about me what a shitty Person I am, ...go ahead and waste your Lifetime instead of listening to your favorite Music or reading a good Book or be with the People you really like. However, I confess, to find out things about haters, amuse me. Especially if they contradict each other. I am really happy about this.

I wanted to make a List for what I am so grateful in my Life.  I wanna remember myself, when i am older for what I was grateful in my younger Years. One Day, when I turn 30 i wanna look back to this Post and see what I was grateful and for what I am grateful then.
And I wanna know for what I am grateful when I turn 30. Perhaps for being married to my wonderful husband and having my Twins? Perhaps that I have such a beautiful, sexy Body, my Husband loves a lot? Perhaps that I am pregnant again and become my 3 Child?
Life can be so magical, when you think pink, positive about your Future.
Oh god it's overwhelming me again right now. I wanna cry, so hard is this feeling... :')
My Life will be perfect when i turn 30.
Right now I am so thankful for it that i can clearly see it. I will be with my dream Husband and we will have the most wonderful children, this World will ever see.

Now back to my List! I was thinking about all aspects in my Life. Looking through my Room, looking inside me and thinking inside. I listen to myself, what really makes me so happy and I've had to be grateful, it's a part of my life now.

I am grateful for:


Each morning I wake up and see the Sun shining;
having a good dream;
can remember that dream;
my bed filled with pillows and a soft bed cover;
the noise of singing birds in the morning;
my BFF and her Family;
my Shopping Mall;
The Water I can drink and the food I can eat;
every comment I receive on my Blog;
each follower I have on Twitter;
my English which becomes better and better;
every sweet message i receive;
the ability of writing a diary ( I love my Diary);
the skills to blogging and research;
the Music I can listen;
the Artist's which enrich my life such as: Ayu, Shokotan, Seikosama, Ali Project, Alil, Kou Shibasaki, Kumi Koda, Maki Goto, Tsuji Nozomi, YUI, Ai Otsuka, Namie Amuro, GACKT, Kamiki Aya, Saasa, Rina Aiuchi, Sachi Tainaka, Matsuura Aya, Morning Musume, Tsuchiya Anna, Ryo Nishikido, Kanjani8, Alan, Kokia, Aya Ueto, Kyoko Fukada, Nobuo Uematsu, Yoko Kanno, Ayaka Hirahara, mouomoon, Minako Honda, Yukiko Okada, Sayaka, Biyuuden, Hitoto Yo, Eri Takenaka, Ayaka, Faye Wong, Huang Yida, Jeff Dana, John Murphy, Rainie Yang, Nana Mizuki, Yu Yamada, Johnny Depp, Jacob Tomuri, James Napier, Meryl Cassie, P!nk, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Vanessa Carlton, Farin Urlaub, Die Ärzte, Sarah Michelle Prinze, Novala Takemoto, Chun Sue, Melissa Sue Anderson, Michael Landon, Melissa Gilbert, the whole cast of Our little House on the Prairie, Laura Ingalls Wilder, Felicity Jones, Lucy Maud Montgomery, Richard Laymon, Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, ach the whole Supernatural Team and Buffy Team, Gilmore Girls crew...this List is endless.
the Games I can play, such as Resident Evil, Silent Hill, Project Zero.
the inventor of this games;
the inventor of computers;
Steve Jobs (I love your IPod, IPhone, ITunes, just everything!);
Bill Gates;
Make up;
my Clothes;
my Hello Kitty Collection;
Tuner;
My Family, even what happened lately. I wanna Quote a Line from Supernatural.

Season 4 Episode 22: "Lucifer Rising"
Dean: I'm not sure if he's my brother any more. If he ever was.
Bobby: You stupid stupid son of a bitch! Well boo hoo. I am so sorry your feelings are hurt... princess! Are you under the impression that family's supposed to make you feel good? Make you an apple pie, maybe? They're supposed to make you miserable! That's why they're family.

these special people in my life (I Love you both forever,..so much I can't handle it. You're both are the Love of my Life.)
all my Online Friends, I've met through the Years;
the online games I can play, such as Pigg Life and Castleville;
Chocolate;
my beautiful long blonde hair;
my beautiful eye color;
Sunrise and Sunset;
blue sky;
he has a Facebook and I've a little view in his Life;
my DVD Player and my TV;
the Day I've meet DIR EN GREY. These Guys are the Reason, why I am now proficient enough to defend against haters online.


Today I am very grateful for the beautiful Day that just started. I had a fantastic breakfast, yummy water to drink and watched Gilmore Girls. This Day will become a happy Day for me.
So....

What are you grateful for today?

The Irony of Haters

Ever since I saw Dir En Grey last year, my Online Life became pretty..... different. I am using more WTF, are you fucking kidding me, fuck, fuck, fuck, ..I've known so many vulgar expressions in English, thanks to a girl.
That is not princess fabulous. I hope to come away from this way. Not pretty at all :(


After my last Post called "I am a Liar?" I and Nymphalidae agreed (after many discussions) to delete all the posts we have on our blog. I did it. Even on Twitter. What a waste of time! She break one's promise. Only a few posts are deleted .....

Here is a BUNCH of Posts from her!

http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20527691668/looks-kinda-similar-nein-kein-bisschen-das
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20515857281/chloelenne-nymphali-dae-glad-that-its
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20515405305/chloelenne-nymphali-dae-glad-that-its
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20515066856/glad-that-its-impossible-1st-from-where-you
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20480636541/deadtree-why-did-i-try-the-chloelenne-tag
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20480000780/deadtree-jrcach-this-is-chloelennes-video
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20478326818/deadtree-nymphali-dae-chloelenne-blog
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20475661507/chloelenne-blog-post-all-about-this-phrase http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20401836128/

nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/10446618755/labellajeannine-i-am-so-sick-of-all-those

nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/10446603531/labellajeannine-tumblr-com-1-tumblr-there-is
nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/9495656420/labellajeannine-tumblr-com-1-tumblr-was-soll
nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/9495291467/was-soll-ich-da-6-stunden-warten-nja-ich-bin-kein
nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/9495074572/is-it-so-hard-for-you-reading-my-whole-text
nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/11696255797/labellajeannine-because-everyone-has-to-know
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/22133838655/deadtree-nymphali-dae-ich-will-sie
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20480636541/deadtree-why-did-i-try-the-chloelenne-tag
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20527691668/looks-kinda-similar-nein-kein-bisschen-das
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20355001974/buttheart-arschherz-o


http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21166236556/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21165841137/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21210008179/deadtree-replied-to-your-photo-manche-menschen
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21162591229/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/9495656420/labellajeannine-tumblr-com-1-tumblr-was-soll
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21162444000/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21163415258/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21165066445/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21165276089/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21165618606/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-deadtree-replied-to
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21161981014/deadtree-replied-to-your-post-und-wieder-gehts
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/21160833581/und-wieder-gehts-bei-chloe-weiter-naturlich-das
http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/9495656420/labellajeannine-tumblr-com-1-tumblr-was-soll


Some Links are dead, others are still active.

Now let's take a look at some Posts!

Someone asked me a while ago, What’re YOUR favorite Diru songs?




What is her problem?
What do she allow herself, to take phrases from my blog without permission?
What do she allow herself to write, I would've meant Dir En Grey?
Oh and of course all her friends have to use her all time favourite Word again: disgusting.
Thank you! (not.) Is it a holy word for them?
It's very odd she still write about that Dir En Grey stuff happened soon a Year ago. Why?
Cox of this:

(http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/23471385298/wing-of-a-butterfly-dear-bill-kaulitz)
So she can post those online sites, and no one is allowed to lose a word about it years later?
While I have to be cursed for the rest of my life cox I run beside her fave Band?
WOW very smart and nice. Really...
Are there special Rules for her?
BTW her Post is a LIE. That Bill Site exist till last Month. It was taken down after my Truth Post about her. How is it even possible finding a Website which is taken down 7 Years ago?

Next nice Blog Post!



It starts with an reblog from my Post on Tumblr. My Words ends with: She must have such a boring Life...  The cursive part in it was from me too: "Oh it is all...":


(http://nymphali-dae.tumblr.com/post/20300268432/trolls)
It’s amazing how much time you spend with writing shit about me on your blog without even asking me whether one thing you assume is true.
It’s amazing she thinks I am writing shit about her, cox everything I found and published here, has been published by herself before. I have proofs for everything, I've ever published about her and it's available online for everyone. So why calling me a Liar?
And why should I ask her? So she has Time to delete everything, before i can publish it?

Did she asked me for permission to publish my Words on her Blog?
Yeah I give a fuck but if People attend to always post about me, using words like disgusting I will pay you back for that.
I like to say:

Piss on my Shoes, I shoot you in your Head.

I was bullied in Junior High and it was horrible. It was the most nightmarish time I had.  I didn't fought back. It was impossible. I was 11 at that Time and i had to fight against 2 Schools. Yes Schools, not just 2 Girls...Elemantary School and High School were on the same Place. Not only i was attacked by People at my age, no, I got attacked by 16 or 17 Year old Boys too! Remember, I was 11 at that time. 11! I didn't do anything to these People, but they had to touch my Body, had to say mean words, it was Hell. One of these Bullies wrote lately a Facebook Entry, she's agains bullying. I got berserk, after reading it. Honestly, I hope her child will be bullied in School too one day, so she can finally understand, what that means. For the Victim and for the Victim's Family.
Now,...if I feel being bullied again, I fight back.


OK SHE was asked about it? Where?
Let's go to Gyaru Secret to find the Person who asked her about it.



 
This is the first she wrote about me. No one asked her anything before this Comment. She just had fun with bashing about me at that Website. NO ONE asked her about what happened last Year. NO ONE!
She really have the cheekiness writing about YOU, dear blogler, you're fake. WTF Just cause she only has 5 bucks of People following her blog doesn't give her the permission writing my readers are fakes! GTFO
I am a pathetic fail? Oh thank you. But calling me disrespectful..

The comments are so fucking NASTY.

The following comments are from the Gyaru Secret Website (including comments from me between the Pictures.)



How do she wants to know I've written anon?

And of course she needs other people to defend her then.

I say: Do not throw bricks when you live in a glass house. You're friends doing it a lot for you...



Buttheart is a fav. Word of mine since this Post. What's so wrong writing buttheart instead of butthurt?



Thanks for linking to my Blog and Twitter!

Madrevolver...You are really a very curious man with a Girl in your Icon! But why are you describe yourself as:

 If you dislike pretty much everything else, why are you even interesting in my thoughts?

 https://twitter.com/#!/TrueAdolfHitler/status/206010628106752001

WOW! That's not funny at all..

Follow back is my way to say thank you to People. Just sayin.

Why are YOU bother how many Followers I have???




Oh yeah Madrevolver you're so right!!!!! You're absolutely right.
And, "If you follow me I'll follow you" doesn't count. They only follow her to be followed back, not because it's her. They don't give a fuck about her more than that she's following back.

You have absolutely no idea. No idea about how much People actually care of me. People tweet thank you in different languages to me for following them. You have absolutely no idea.
Here are some Thank you Tweets!
Can't read? OOOOOHHHHH
Then go and follow this Account for translate it by yourself, man.

She's not a fan. She made it "just for fun"

Everything I do I do just for fun. What's Life if I don't have fun?? Very interesting how she can look into my Brain and knows exactly, why I do what I do.
lovelyenne is me.



Well... you're still young. So please try to learn.
Otherwise you end up like a stupid little brat.
Maybe even worse than you're now.

What I have to learn? Being like you? Wasting web space for whining about comments by strangers of photos from my favorite artist?
Comments which will certainly never read by my fav artist.
Comments which will certainly never read by anyone, cause I won't whine and making them public to my well known Blog. Did you ever thought about, that most of the comments, you always have to reblog wouldn't be reading by many people?

You're really too full of yourself.

So what? What's so wrong about it? Should I be full of YOU instead?

To make it easier for you: "to be full of oneself"

You wrote first: full of yourself, then: full of oneself.  You can't decide, hum?

Btw. It's pathetic to just delete comments on your posts you don't like.
It really is. You should stop that.

Is it your Blog or my? Don't tell me what i have to do upon my Blog. Let me tell you something: Everyone is deleting shitty comments on their Blog Posts, cause no one wants Troll Comments on their Blogs. If you have no problems, having comments up such as:

"Kill yourself! "

"Go to hell, bitch i hate you so much, you fuckin fat bitch damn it dafug i hate you!"

Good for you. But i don't allow such comments.
I truly don't know, why this should be pathetic....

I switch whenever ich will :D It was only for her not you.
 I didn't thought that brat is a german word. 
In German we have a Word, Bratpfanne. Now I read for the first time in my life brat.
brat. You know. Short for Bratpfanne...
omg! XDDD
she even made a tumblr entry and a blog entry about me since she's so butthurt xDDDDD
I have to laugh so much.
You are so happy I did a Blog Entry about you? Here you go again! :D
Did you know, approximately 50% or more of all your Blog Entrys are butthurt Posts about other Opinions from People making fun of your fav. Artist?

Imagine this is what EVERYONE thinks of you, when you again whining about Mr. D.  and publish it on your tumblr.


I start bashing her again?
She's sick of writing with me, then why for god's sake did SHE started it over there?

I am only judge her by her published posts and comments. I am not judge her because of her weight. This was only an indicative. Yeah 40 pounds is a lot.... I apologized publicly cox of what i wrote. But ...

Gyaru is for skinny girls. I doubt madrevolver would dating his girl, if she would have 100 pounds more on her body.

And even if you would "need to lose" 150kgs or gain 150kgs it's still irrelevant to gyaru since it's about the style and not the weight lol.
But it is very relevant, writing at Gyaru Secrets about me, hum? How many Posts are up about my Person? 51?


It all can be found here:

http://gyaru-secrets.livejournal.com/105234.html#cutid1

Just search for nymphalidae to come easy to the Posts. I am #11 there. Luckily my Pic isn't there anymore.

I could finish this now... but I found something very funny and had to share it with you!
Just read it..




That wonderful nice Girl wrote once on her Tumblr, I am obsessed with her and again she accused me of lying.  I am not lying. I have proofs for everything I write.

Research does not equal obsessed. I don't get reserved everything on a silver tray. OK?





One of her Friends wrote this nice Post (She is one of the Girls saying I am disgusting. Just take a look at the first Picture of this Post.):

 Please take a look at the Tags of the next 3 Pictures. These are screenshots from a friend of her. It was vendetta against me btw.



 http://tarantye-no.tumblr.com/post/9504740472/was-soll-ich-da-6-stunden-warten-nja-ich-bin-kein
 http://tarantye-no.tumblr.com/post/20353682702/trolls



These girls using the Dir En Grey Tag on Tumblr for her own Vendetta.
Oh Irony....



So Nymphalidae asked me for writing via E-Mail. I was thinking about it. She wrote:
 ...before everything runs out of the oar. and it will. it is already.
That makes no sense for me. Why should i then write with her, if it is already outta control? Perhaps she realise for the first time, this Blog really gets Hits and the People here are no Fakes. There are People who knows the Truth about her. There are People who reads this Blog.

She didn't even let me Time to answer her. As if I am online 24 hours a Day.
After 1 hour she wrote me:
...Please answer me. This is just a courtesy thing of.
You do not have the courtesy to wait? Your not the only one who comment here...
And I doubt we really can clarify that. We had it once. You break our deal.

 Why should I Trust you again?

Everything was OK after YOU started bashing me on Gyaru Secret again.


Tuner and me in bed, chilling and listen Seiko Matsuda.

Seems like he is a lil bit sick :(
━━━━(゜∀゜)━━━━!! Tuner's Face so süper sweet! ━━━━(゜∀゜)━━━━!!━━━━(゜∀゜)━━━━!!━━━━(゜∀゜)━━━━!!
Went for a walk with Tuner. Can you see him in the Picture? ━━━━(゜∀゜)━━━━!!